It has been really and I mean REALLY hard for me ever science he passed on, I was so shocked, words couldn't put how I feel, I was so heart-broken I cried all day. We will never be the same again, it's not just like "Oh my favorite band broke up!" or something, and Dani, please stop doing drugs, I really don't want the same thing to happen to you or Marilyn Manson.

But now I know he is happy, but I still want him back so bad, my (our) love for flesh is what makes us so sad. Like Cradle of Filth's first ever album, "The Principle of Evil Made Flesh." Michael has no more pain he does not know what it is any more or what that word means. The name was true. He knows us all right now and loves us with all his heart.