I am listening to Nymphetamine, when I should really be getting on with an assignment that's due in a few weeks. Why can't we study anything remotely interesting in school? I must admit, some topics are quite intriguing, but some are just nconceivingly tedious.

Before I launch into a full force rant about how school is a complete waste of time that we could've been using more effectively, I will bring up the subject of religion.

I believe in nothing.

Saying that, I have an interest in different 'darker' religions, namely Satanism, although I do not partake in devil worship (though I fully respect those who do). My mother, though she continuously says she doesn't mind things like sexual orientation/politcal beliefs/favourite bands, she seems intent on steering me towards the 'dark side of religion', which only compels me more.

I was called a 'Nazi psycho emo' in my previous school, and also here (or so I'm told) because my idols include Marilyn Manson, Anton LaVey, Dani Filth, and several more. I have several other people I admire, some who are related to Satanism, and some who aren't, but the conservative nature of the people here is absurd and aggravating.

As Dani Filth said in the PandaemonAeon DVD, I also spend my time thinking of assassinating religious figures (namely the pope). I have had countless encounters with religious zealots and preachers, and I did not and never will take kindly to their words.

Having said that, why am I a magnet for Bible pushers? Is there truly something about me that screams "Satanist! Satanist!"? Even if I was, who gave them the right to judge my ways?

Why was I baptized? Why couldn't I have made my own choice as to what religion I would follow, rather than being baptized against my will?

I respect all religions in the world, except those that attempt to ram their holy scriptures down my throat, alright?

I feel much calmer, having vented out a fraction of my emotions.