Words wash over me
and i drown.
Grabbing at false handholds of hope
only to be dropped back in my personal hell.
Im not perfect but then again are you?
I cant swim with the wight of
misplaced guilt dragging me down.
Im trying to stand on my own two feet
but im trying to stand on wet quick sand
And im sinking
sinking so fast so hard
that i cant even catch my breath.
I scream for help and no one hears
my broken desperate pleas.
I can change just give me time
dont think im weak, but im not made of stone.
This brave face is just a mask
to hide a bitter and torn up past.
JUST LEAVE ME!! fuck you i dont need your help
not if every second word out of your pretty mouth
is how much i disappoint you
how much better you think i could be.
love? Yeah right, more like shackles of a slave
biting in to my neck as you pull harder
trying to make me something im not.
I'd rather die and rot
then have to be your happy brainless puppet.
You scream redemption
You holler my damnation
and all i can do is cower in my corner
and prey that you fights dont fall.
Just let me drown
you've let me down
far to many times to forgive
and if this is how im meant to live
Then i'd rather take my life
with the rusted edge of this blackened knife.