I think about him everyday. I always wonder "What if?". What would have happened if he never had left home that beautiful summer day? Did I ever do anything wrong that would have caused him to leave me in the first place? How much longer would he have stayed together with Satan's spawn? So many questions and absolutely no answers. There's nothing I can do about that and it drives me crazy more and more. I've been thinking about Oliver a lot more than usual lately. I don't exactly know why but I am. I miss him more and more everyday. The sad thing about this is that as the days go by and the years pile up his voice in my head drifts away. I would do anything to bring him back to spend time with him for just one more day. There's so many things I wanted to say to him that I will never got to do. I can go to his grave and say what I feel and tell him all the things I wanted to but I will never get the satisfaction of knowing that he heard me. He really was my soul mate in my eyes and my love for him will never die. When Angela called me that day I didn't believe what she was telling me until I heard it in her voice. Then I remembered hearing the ambulence from afar. I still didn't believe it fully until I turned on the news and seen it for myself. I remember when Willie or Greg had told me that Oliver was going to ask me back out the August after he past, and it made my stomach drop. I would have definatley would have said yes if nothing would have ever happened to him. I see him in my dreams and I never want them to end. When I wake up it takes me a minute to realize that it was just a dream and that he isn't here. Some of the happiest times in my life was spent with that boy. He meant everything to me and I'm certain that we would have ended up getting married. He was the one who made me who I am today. If I could go back to my freshmen year and do it all over again, I would do a lot of things differently. I would actually have spent more time with him and would have treated every time like it was the last. I just hope that he knew how much I loved him. I hope that he knew I'd always be his little butterfly because he will always be my little crackhead lol (I never knew why he liked that so much). I look forward to the day that I get to see you again.

† RockInPeace Oliver Leonard Clark †
†I love you, I miss you, and I love you again†