reality is like a nightmare

we can't wake up from

that's why we go to sleep

so we can build on our dreams of tomorrow

Your love, your hate

Your very betrayal

Pierces through

My dying heart…

look at this mess we've built

is this the life you would choose?

is this the world you would make?

i can't find a reason to believe in humanity

self preservation is the only motivation for anything

burn my bones

and burry the ashes

cuz if I ever find a way

to return to this world

no mortal soul will find mercy

in my cold blue eyes

for I have suffered too much

in your damned dreams

of fitting into society

I never wanted

and I'll never wanna be

how you want me to be

so say your prayer

your end is near

1. it seems like every one around me has found that other person to be free with but here i am and maybe i think my look is a little imatating haha but whose to blame im not the same as everyone else around here haha wish it was slightly different or just had an addition of metal rockers such as thou haha dont know . . ... . most persons around here who do listen to what i like well like other gay bands . . not naming any…

imagine u finally meet the person of ur dreams. a person that will love u forever and will always have their arms held open, they will always except u and love u for who and how u look. they dont care if ur different or if ur the same as everyone else . they dont care if its raining hailing or sun shine but they'll do anything to get to u and cuddle up to u when ur down.

but u dont relies that all this can disapear with in a blink of an eye.

a bell isnt a bell till u ring…

It's interesting, i've been reading through forums and posts and there is little that surprises me really, which is a shame because that in itself surprises me.



Perhaps I should explain.

My friend has slowly been corrupting..I mean educating...me about this delicious genra of music called metal and all its little idosyincracys and as I learn more I feel compelled to find out more. Thus C.O.F has come into my life. My excitment at finding this site caused said friend…

i am filled with sadness

but who could understand

my pain, my life

my heart, my soul

i am ashamed

to reach out

my hand

i am ashamed

to admit

my suffering