my eldest son took his own life,has anyone of you delt with something like that,he was a big cradle fan.just like me and i feel deeply depressed,a part of me can't believe that he did it.and on the other hand i believe he's at peace now.no more problems,no more shite to deal with.but he left us heartbroken and the rest of his brothers and sisters without a clue,there was no note.he just vanished and the police found after four weeks his body in a terrible state so we said goodbye to a coffin instead of a body,the smell was terrible.
hope we can do something with this
ed
dude thats terrible... i cant even imagine what you're going through. the only advice i could offer is to not question anything, at least at first. dont ask yourself why. don't focus on the negatives - think of only the positive and happy times you spent together - birthdays, holidays, his first steps, words, his smile, etc.