Before I start my rant I'd like to apologise if there was similar threads already created in which this thingie could have been posted in, I've been scrolling up and down and could not relate whats to be posted with any of those topics. Quite frankly im still new to this place and trying to find my way around.
Anyway, the entire point of what I am about to write is not to spread some of my thoughts that no one cares about and trick someone into reading them, hehe, I've been meeting few people lately and while talking to them and then reading one of the dani's interviews the other day I came to conclusion people don't really know how much this band has done for entire metal scene in the last 20 years and what gross me the most is that some people go outside, talk crap about Cradle of Filth and then come home and put new Cradle of Filth album in their player and listen to it secretly, seriously?
I would like to hear everyone's story how they found Cradle of Filth and what it meant to them back then and now, I must say this band help me a lot in some fucked up times and I am proud to say this is still my favorite band and probably always will be. If you have patience or nothing better to do than read my rant, i'll be pleased, who knows, maybe it helps some people with similar experience, you never know.
Anyway, I am not old enough to remember all Cradle of Filth periods, I was born in a small place in Serbia, 30 houses in the middle of the forest; Sure, I listened to Iron Maiden and Slayer, but back then cassettes were not that easy to find, there were no internet as it is now, the best you could get in a small place are already big famous metal bands. Some older kid somehow put his hands on Duske and her Embrace TAPE, manually recorded from an other tape, should i mention sound was fucking horrible, then i re-recorded to MY old tape, call me crazy, all those crap background noise made that album even more vicious sounding, seriously, spellbounded after first tunes. I spent weeks desperately trying to get more of Cradle of Filth stuff, it was next to impossible. Don't get me wrong, money was never an issue, I would not cry over a few euros for each cd but no fucking stores were selling COF or really any metal stuff in such small place.
And then high-school started, bigger town, in which i've been already looking but not knowing your way around does not get you far. To buy metal stuff back then you had to know which stores to go to and where to look which i never knew. First day highschool, entering classroom with bunch of these judgmental kids looking down at you; not because of long hair or weird clothes, that was never an issue, these bastards could smell you are not the town cub haha Sit beside this kid that seamed to be sleeping or don't really care about shit going on around him. Never would take him for a metal dude to start with, open my notebook and start drawing some stuff, nothing important or specific and this weird guy looks at it with one eye and is like 'hey, thats not to bad, im marko, wanna look at my shiit?', so he opens his notebook and a huge Cradle of Filth logo drawn by him appears i was like WOW I love the band! So both delighted he start asking me about songs etc and i admit i just heard really crippled version of Dusk. He invited me to his house after and god fcking dam, he had Vampire CD from shipped from England with this amazing sound and also Bitter Suites CD with this huge bootleg and all the lyrics etc Happiness :D
Over the years he turned to be such a close friend I'd cut my hand off if he needed it right now, slowly we managed to put our hands on all CoF stuff and even in 4th year of high school found out CoF is playing in Budapest, whole different country. We managed to book tickets over some pirate selling concert tickets twice more expensive than it would cost us to buy in Budapest, we went completely broke. Took a train from Belgrade and arrived in Budapest with like 5 euros all together. To arrive to spot we had to take a subway which we could not afford so we jumped over the ramp and i got cought and spent entire evening in subway prison haha however, friend manage to see the show, one outta two, not bad!
Years passed and CoF keeps changing their music, from good to awesome i'd say. With each crap life served me CoF would put me back together, all these years, all the girlfriends and bad break ups, all the regular life shit, all the people i grew hair together and partied and spent nights with outside just doing awesome stuff that meet me now and ask you still listen to that shit!? Well, yes i do, fuck you very much for your question :) SURE if you look at the way i look now, short hair, white shirt, regular leming outfit does not mean shit of what i actually am and what cof made me be, life is not treating everyone the same and some have to adapt to it the way they might not like to but hell, it happens, you do not have to do ANYTHING you do not want to do tho.
Finaly, a year or two ago, no idea, I saw COF playing Belgrade, ofc, I booked my ticket, cause of work, i arrive late there, could be even 30ish minutes before the show and in front of there there's this girl crying like a rain, i was like wth, there was hardly any people still there, most were inside, i asked one of her friends whats up, apparently it got either sold out or smth else can't remember but she did not have the ticket herself, so, yea... fuck me, i gave her mine and thats how i end up not seeing COF on the 2nd attempt i had them come and play close to me, do hope she had a good time tho.
So thats it, thank you cradle of filth for everything and keep up the hell of a work and please come back soon as this time, i really wonder what will fuck things up for me not to see you :D
If anyone has any questions or would like to talk about being targeted, or felt the pressure of the enviroment or just chat, hit me, I try check my mails everytime i have few spare minutes cya